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[dothelokimotion]

[ oh. definitely not great. ]

I still have mine. If you require assistance.

[thecoolerloki]

What do you suggest?

[dothelokimotion]

Perhaps a memory share. It may jolt the body into shifting.

[thecoolerloki]

There are memories of mine I've been finding difficult to reach. Perhaps we could start there.

[dothelokimotion]

It might be painful. This sort of magic isn't easily controlled.

[thecoolerloki]

Are you afraid?

[dothelokimotion]

When it comes to our memories? Cautious.

[thecoolerloki]

Where should I meet you? Your little theater?

[dothelokimotion]

[ wow it's a very large theatre, absolutely not proportionate to his ego!! ]

The theatre should be fine.

[thecoolerloki]

See you soon!

[True to his word, Loki is there almost immediately, exiting out of a similar green portal as before. He's still older, but his body seems more lived in now, none of the awkwardness of suddenly being 6'4.]

[dothelokimotion]

[ blue boy is no longer blue, dressed in a white shirt, tie and black slacks. he blinks when the portal opens, curious and he gives a curt nod when the youngest loki steps through. ]

Which memory would you like to try?

[thecoolerloki]

[He smiles.]

My death. I thought we could work backwards from there.

[dothelokimotion]

[ he mutters. ]

Delightful.

I'll initiate the link.

[ telegraphing his movements, he gently places his palm over loki's forehead. ]

[thecoolerloki]

[Loki allows it, and though his other self has seen the moments leading up to his ego death before, this is not that memory. Instead, the boy is in an ancient library, picking a book off the shelf. The Siege of Asgard, reads the cover of the book. He devours its contents quickly, latching onto one passage in particular.

Loki's final stand against the Void is a question to which we have no answer. Why did Loki do it? No-one knows.

"Would you know more?" another voice asks, sensing the new reader.]

[dothelokimotion]

[ the void. a part of loki trembles despite himself. it's been so long since he faced that utter darkness.

this doesn't feel like a memory. it feels like something else. loki keeps the connection tenuous, in case of disaster. which is often always the case when it comes to lokis. ]

Why would I?

[thecoolerloki]

That’s the point of this exercise, is it not?

[It’s the old man who says that, not the child. He seems impatient.]

[dothelokimotion]

[ he frowns at the old man. ]

The point of the exercise is for Loki to regain his ability. Not for me to traipse around his memories.

[thecoolerloki]

And this is the path to the memories I mentioned before, the ones still closed off to me.

[The memories the boy was not permitted to have, that which made Loki who he once was.]

But if you have a better idea of where to start, I'll hear it.

[dothelokimotion]

[ he lets out a laborious sigh. ]

All right. Take me there.

[thecoolerloki]

[Loki claps his hands together, pleased they got that over with. He takes the book from the child, and holds it up to his other self.

Why did Loki do it?

And when he lowers the book, they're on a battlefield, surrounded by Avengers and others. A Loki identical to the old man is using Norn stones to assist them in their fight against the Void, until his mischief is noticed and the Void grabs onto him. His eyes turn pitch black as he addresses them both in place of Thor.

"I'm sorry, brother."

And then he explodes into blood and guts and stuff. The old man yawns, unimpressed.]

Nothing useful here.

[dothelokimotion]

[ he didn't know the void could do that. did it have its claws in him still? it's a terrifying thought that loki is going to summarily ignore right now. ]

How much deeper must we go?

[thecoolerloki]

Until I can remember my memories as my own.

[While there's plenty he can do in this world with the trust the boy's earned, he feels incomplete without the rest of himself. If the magpie would show itself, he could've simply devoured it and be done, but this'll have to do.

The scene shifts to another battle, Loki in his full armor and regalia as he takes on the Disir, dismembering the zombie-like women and grinning as their blood splatters his face.]

None of this is the why, only the how...

[dothelokimotion]

[ he's not squeamish about blood or violence but seeing it like this, as an outsider is jarring. ]

The "it" you spoke of. What were you referring to?

[thecoolerloki]

We've already seen it.

[The scenes skip around, like pages of a book being flipped through. Back to Loki dying!]

My noble sacrifice. The dialogue implies it was out of guilt or some loyalty to Asgard, but Loki would only ever sacrifice himself for himself. I died so that I would be reborn, and so I was. But there was more to it. Plans I must've hidden from both the boy and his plaything.

[dothelokimotion]

I've done it.

[ he died for thor. twice. he hadn't been thinking of himself all that much. just the ending it would be. ]

And I'm here to uncover his power, not to resurrect your plans.