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[dothelokimotion]

That's usually how it works.

[unkindled_madness]

I'm glad that it didn't, this time.

[dothelokimotion]

I was being careful.

And it was worth the risk.

[unkindled_madness]

[Worth the risk? For him?

He takes a cautious step closer.]

...and somehow, you think that isn't enough.

[dothelokimotion]

It wasn't enough. It never seems to be. I can never get it right.

[unkindled_madness]

I'm here. I'm fine.

[dothelokimotion]

[ loki grimaces. ]

That had nothing to do with me.

[unkindled_madness]

...

And your feeling badly for that has little to do with me, does it?

[dothelokimotion]

[ well. putting it like that makes loki seem selfish. he crosses his arms feeling defensive and self-conscious. ]

I just wanted to do it right. To have friends.

[unkindled_madness]

[That's... a familiar sentiment.]

You have one, at least.

[dothelokimotion]

Until I make a mess of it.

That's all I do.

[unkindled_madness]

[He's still not sure if it's welcome, considering the stabbing, but he's going to attempt a shoulder touch.]

It isn't.

[dothelokimotion]

[ loki doesn't shrug it off. he meant what he said. he holds no ill feelings there. but his own doubts are stronger. ]

I don't know how you can say that. How anyone can. I've never — I've never done anything right.

[unkindled_madness]

My other self, you said he was very different. He didn't trust you, or anyone.

[dothelokimotion]

. . . Yes. He seemed angry and frustrated. Lost.

[unkindled_madness]

Would you say that I am... better off?

[dothelokimotion]

[ loki frowns, unsure. ]

I . . . suppose so.

[unkindled_madness]

[He's going to turn away a little bit, awkward.]

...you were the one who convinced me that connection was... worthwhile.

[dothelokimotion]

[ oh. ]

Me?

[unkindled_madness]

Yes.

You said that its complexity could be rewarding. And you wanted that for me.

[dothelokimotion]

But . . . surely I didn't mean me.

[unkindled_madness]

You didn't.

That was my choice.

[dothelokimotion]

. . . You chose me.

[unkindled_madness]

I did.

[dothelokimotion]

[ no one has ever chosen him. for anything. loki stares at sephiroth, overwhelmed. he seems to reach for his face though he nearly stops half-way, unsure, but tries again. ]