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[unkindled_madness]

[Worth the risk? For him?

He takes a cautious step closer.]

...and somehow, you think that isn't enough.

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It wasn't enough. It never seems to be. I can never get it right.

[unkindled_madness]

I'm here. I'm fine.

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[ loki grimaces. ]

That had nothing to do with me.

[unkindled_madness]

...

And your feeling badly for that has little to do with me, does it?

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[ well. putting it like that makes loki seem selfish. he crosses his arms feeling defensive and self-conscious. ]

I just wanted to do it right. To have friends.

[unkindled_madness]

[That's... a familiar sentiment.]

You have one, at least.

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Until I make a mess of it.

That's all I do.

[unkindled_madness]

[He's still not sure if it's welcome, considering the stabbing, but he's going to attempt a shoulder touch.]

It isn't.

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[ loki doesn't shrug it off. he meant what he said. he holds no ill feelings there. but his own doubts are stronger. ]

I don't know how you can say that. How anyone can. I've never — I've never done anything right.

[unkindled_madness]

My other self, you said he was very different. He didn't trust you, or anyone.

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. . . Yes. He seemed angry and frustrated. Lost.

[unkindled_madness]

Would you say that I am... better off?

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[ loki frowns, unsure. ]

I . . . suppose so.

[unkindled_madness]

[He's going to turn away a little bit, awkward.]

...you were the one who convinced me that connection was... worthwhile.

[dothelokimotion]

[ oh. ]

Me?

[unkindled_madness]

Yes.

You said that its complexity could be rewarding. And you wanted that for me.

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But . . . surely I didn't mean me.

[unkindled_madness]

You didn't.

That was my choice.

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. . . You chose me.

[unkindled_madness]

I did.

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[ no one has ever chosen him. for anything. loki stares at sephiroth, overwhelmed. he seems to reach for his face though he nearly stops half-way, unsure, but tries again. ]

[unkindled_madness]

[Sephiroth lets him, this time. Loki may not remember from before, but they've started to build something again here. It's not nothing.

And... he wants it, anyway.]

I stand by it.

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[ his thumb brushes over the curve of sephiroth's cheek as loki observes him quietly. he can see it clearly. it's not simply to recapture what they had once or to relive it, but to rediscover and still make anew. and still want loki as he is.

maybe he was right all along. that the one in his past and the loki of now are the same. and perhaps loki simply needed to believe in himself more. he could certainly stand to try.

because he's . . . been chosen.

gently, loki presses a kiss to the corner of sephiroth's lips before pulling back. ]

Thank you.

[unkindled_madness]

[Sephiroth closes his eyes for a moment. He missed that. He shouldn't; he went so long without that it shouldn't make any difference now. But it still feels... nice.]

...of course.