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[dothelokimotion]

[ he smiles, pressing a kiss to his cheek. ]

And you, of course.

[unkindled_madness]

For all my expensive needs.

[dothelokimotion]

Hmm.

Was there anything you ever wanted, expense-wise?

[unkindled_madness]

...I meant it as a joke, but I was considering enrolling in some classes.

[dothelokimotion]

Oh?

[ loki idly weaves his arms around sephiroth. ]

Tell me more.

[unkindled_madness]

Well, there is a community college in Central which does not require prior education.

[dothelokimotion]

Is there a subject you wish to learn?

[unkindled_madness]

...they have classes in geology, music, literature...

[He's trying to start small.]

[dothelokimotion]

All good things.

Are you excited?

[unkindled_madness]

I am eager.

But I am also... unsure how it will feel to learn in the company of others.

[dothelokimotion]

[ hm. ]

What do you mean?

[unkindled_madness]

...I was tutored as a child. Alone.

[dothelokimotion]

[ he hums. loki had thor and they learned together. which made most things into a competition but it had been nice too. playing pranks and the like. ]

They'll all be there to learn. Like you. In that, you are no different.

[unkindled_madness]

That's precisely what's different. I will be one of many. No different.

[dothelokimotion]

[ loki cocks his head at him. ]

Is that . . . a bad thing?

[unkindled_madness]

...I don't think so.

[It's just... a complicated feeling.]

I... was always told that I was special. But I came to understand that there were different reasons for my being kept separate. They weren't explained to me, so I speculated.

[dothelokimotion]

[ to isolate. to make him dependent. if he was special, he wouldn't want to leave. loki squeezes him lightly. he's not sure if he knows what to say here. loki was special, yes. the god of mischief. the son of odin. he was never ordinary, even when he fell.

and he wanted to hold onto that for as long as he could. to be special. to never be forgotten. ]

And now you may have to confront some of it.

[unkindled_madness]

...yes. I suppose that's it.

All of those reasons, the ones I was told, and the ones I told myself... they weren't real.

[dothelokimotion]

And it can hurt. To let that go.

[ as it hurt him once. ]

[unkindled_madness]

And to glimpse what could have been, without it.

[dothelokimotion]

I think you'll come out stronger for it.

[unkindled_madness]

[He chuckles softly.]

Well, I think I will be all right, at any rate.

[dothelokimotion]

Of course you will be.

And you'll come back to me, you who is the most special in my heart.

[unkindled_madness]

Yours is the only assessment that really matters.

[dothelokimotion]

Precisely.