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[unkindled_madness]

I do want it.

[dothelokimotion]

[ that is a relief. ]

I believe you.

[unkindled_madness]

Is it different for you?

From with other people, I mean.

[dothelokimotion]

[ loki considers this. ]

With other people, there's a degree of control. I get to decide the terms of engagement. Or what kind of person I need to be. Do they want someone soft or someone who will give them what they want?

I'm a chameleon. I can be anything anyone wants.

[unkindled_madness]

...but you're yourself with me?

[Without control? He's not sure what to make of that.]

[dothelokimotion]

[ loki glances at him, curious. ]

Well, I'm not trying to get anything out of you. I'm just . . . enjoying us.

[unkindled_madness]

...I'm glad.

But I suppose I thought... well, that you'd enjoyed it before.

[dothelokimotion]

I do. I have a streak of hedonism and physicality is a part of that.

But I'm centuries old. After a while, it's nothing special.

[unkindled_madness]

But you always shaped yourself to what others wanted?

[dothelokimotion]

It . . . seemed like the best way to keep people around.

[unkindled_madness]

Mm.

[He can't say he doesn't understand the impulse.]

You don't have to, with me.

[dothelokimotion]

[ loki nods slowly. sometimes he wonders if he does behave that way with sephiroth, desperate for his attention and his place in sephiroth's heart that he'll do anything for it. but how else is he supposed to be? loki has never lived a life, content.

but he likes to think he's going into this as honest as he can be. sephiroth was the one person loki ever attempted to be selfless with. surely, surely, that is still in him. ]

[unkindled_madness]

I am sorry to ask you to hold back at all.

But it's temporary.

[He'll acclimate.]

[dothelokimotion]

[ his expression softens with a fond smile. ]

I rather you chase what you enjoy. It'll come to you.

[unkindled_madness]

I am chasing what I enjoy.

[dothelokimotion]

[ oh. his smile gentles. ]

So am I.

[unkindled_madness]

...good, then.

[dothelokimotion]

[ mm. loki leans against him. ]

[unkindled_madness]

[Sephiroth cups the side of his face, leaning in closer to kiss him.]

[dothelokimotion]

[ loki inclines his head to meet it, they're still meeting in the middle. whatever happens, they still have each other. this is his. this is theirs. ]