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[dothelokimotion]

It is a difficult thing to trust.

[ a beat. ]

When I was . . . young, I was abandoned by my father. And adopted by another to make use of. For political gain.

[scythias]

I'm sorry.

( even if the words are trite, hollow and won't solve what happened. she is sorry.

she smiles, reaching across to take his hand. )

When trust is lost so badly, it is hard to make it come back. Because you're always thinking it's going to happen again.

[dothelokimotion]

[ loki blinks, surprised. ]

Yes. That's exactly it. I always feel like I'm on the cusp of another betrayal.

[scythias]

I don't think there's really anything that can be done to...solve that.

( there were always going to be insecurities and such especially when you spent so much of your life being betrayed. )

All you can do is just...not close yourself off entirely because of it.

[dothelokimotion]

I have been . . . working on it.

[ he's certainly vastly improved, but some things slip under the radar. ]

Apparently the key to success is learning to "love myself".

[scythias]

That sounds trite, doesn't it?

( that the key to success is learning to love yourself. she chuckles. )

How is that going for you? Learning to love yourself.

[dothelokimotion]

[ loki shrugs. ]

It's what Thor said I should do. And I couldn't say. I have no idea what the barometer for . . . loving oneself should look like.

[scythias]

I don't think I really know either.

( as old as she was, it wasn't something she'd really paid all that much attention to. )

Do you feel like you've let people in?

[dothelokimotion]

[ loki can't help a brief flutter of a smile. ]

I'm here, am I not?

[scythias]

You are. And I'm glad you are.

( she returns that quick smile. )

I hope you're enjoying it at least a little. I haven't done this in awhile.

[dothelokimotion]

I am.

[ it's thoughtful. and loki is so rarely thought upon. he reaches out for her hand, thumb brushing over her knuckles. ]

When was the last time?

[scythias]

When was the last time I did this?

( andy thinks about it before she laughs and shakes her head. )

A long time. A very long time. I can't even remember the last time.

[dothelokimotion]

Then let us make this worth remembering.

[scythias]

Well, I'm very in favor of that.

( she smirks at him and even winks before reaching for her drink. )

I haven't been on a date in a long time but I think I can figure out how to do that.

[dothelokimotion]

Careful. You may make my expectations go higher.

[scythias]

Are your expectations already fairly high?

( she smirks. )

What are you hoping happens here?

[dothelokimotion]

My expectations are simple: To be surprised. Nothing more or less.

[scythias]

You missed your chance. You could have said anything there and I would have tried to do it.

( maybe. )

[dothelokimotion]

[ he smiles. ]

Where is the fun in that?

[scythias]

I don't know. You could have made your own fun.

( andy laughs though and shakes her head. that's fine, she can drive this evening. )

Usually, the food would be better but I don't cook and the selection isn't great.

[dothelokimotion]

You shouldn't be admitting to such things. After all, I have no frame of reference.

Treat it as new.

[scythias]

I like to live dangerously.

( a smile flickers. )

Planning on going on more dates, hm?

[dothelokimotion]

If this is a success, I don't see why not.

[scythias]

Do you think it's going to be a success?

( inquiring minds. )

[dothelokimotion]

[ a low hum. ]

I have hope.