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[dothelokimotion]

It does feel that way.

Not so much anymore. All that I feared has already come to pass after all.

[sinistral]

Then why are you afraid of this?

[dothelokimotion]

He is all I have left here. And . . . I don't know what will happen to me if I leave this place.

[sinistral]

Will you not then use the time you have?

[dothelokimotion]

I will. Most certainly.

I suppose I worry.

[sinistral]

Because you can’t see the future. And because you can’t imagine one in which you matter.

Don’t hide from this. Please?

[dothelokimotion]

I won't.

At least I will try my best not to.

[sinistral]

If I can give you anything in strength, you just have to ask and it’s yours.

[dothelokimotion]

I know.

[ he believes it too. ]

Things have always been uncertain but never like this.

[sinistral]

Good.

[Even though that word is complicated for them there are times that it fits.]

Do you want to tell me?

[dothelokimotion]

About the uncertainty?

I have no plans. No future. I'm simply watching time pass by in this place.

[sinistral]

If you want. I won’t push.

Would you rather not have the time at all?

[dothelokimotion]

Sometimes, yes. I know I am fortunate to have it. But it feels like a slow crawl to a death I've already lived.

Thor, others. They all talk about finding ways to save me. I just think it's a waste of time. I keep dying. I've never learned how to stop.

[sinistral]

I hate this place. I hate almost everything about it. But I refuse to stop living.

Whether the time is limited or infinite, LIVE. Choose to exist. You told me that existing was the bravest thing. I want you to choose it for yourself too.

[dothelokimotion]

Oh I will never stop living. I take that seriously. I will always choose to live.

[ sometimes it is out of spite or just a selfish desire that no matter who or what he is, he'll continue to live. ]

It just feels a bit harder of late.

[sinistral]

What can I do to ease that burden?

[dothelokimotion]

You're doing it already.

But perhaps we can spar?

[sinistral]

Verbally or physically?

Or both?

[Once before, the answer to a far different question had been both. He’d encouraged Loki to be jealous then. He wonders if the other man remembers it as clearly.]

[dothelokimotion]

[ it had been close. envy and jealousy are two emotions loki feels quite often. ]

We could do both at the same time.

[sinistral]

Give me a time and a place and I’m yours.

[dothelokimotion]

How about the Iskaulit, later today?

[sinistral]

Done. [He's been avoiding the Iskaulit for various reasons, but none of them are truly important compared to this.] The gym, or did you have somewhere else in mind?

[dothelokimotion]

The gym should suffice.

[sinistral]

As you wish. I'm looking forward to it.

[dothelokimotion]

[ continued here ]