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[sinistral]

Is it so unusual to think that he’s always needed you, and this has thrown it into sharper relief?

[dothelokimotion]

Yes.

[ 100%. thor has never needed him. it's ludicrous to even consider it. why would thor need him? ]

[sinistral]

And...?

[dothelokimotion]

And what? Thor still has friends in the Fleet. He has friends on that planet he loves so much. He's strong. He has a life.

[sinistral]

A life he apparently wants you in. You’re not expendable Loki. You’re not some shiny thing to be tossed aside on a whim.

[dothelokimotion]

Am I not?

[sinistral]

Not in the slightest. Not even if you try to be.

[dothelokimotion]

I cannot deny that. I do not think he would or choose to.

But I suppose it bothers me to see him suffer so. It bothers me because I am responsible for it and I do not know how to fix it.

[sinistral]

I don’t know that I can give adequate advice. Fixing things isn’t exactly something I do. But he needs you in his life, and maybe he needs to hear that you WANT to be there.

[dothelokimotion]

Perhaps. You're not wrong.

I simply do not wish to give him false hope.

[sinistral]

Why do you have so little faith in yourself?

[dothelokimotion]

I suppose I had no reason to have faith in myself.

[sinistral]

And no faith in him either?

[dothelokimotion]

Of course I have faith in Thor. I always have.

[sinistral]

Interesting. You worry about giving him false hope but don’t believe that he could want and need you as you are. If you have faith in him, why do you doubt him so?

[dothelokimotion]

I do not doubt him.

I doubt . . . what I would bring. What I've already brought into his life.

My father said once that wherever I went, I brought death and destruction.

[sinistral]

Yet knowing what you’ve brought him, he wants you there still.

Someone told me that death gives rise to new life.

[dothelokimotion]

That is a strange way of putting it.

[sinistral]

Perhaps. Perhaps it’s just a platitude designed for people like us who have killed so much and so often that we hardly hesitate to do it again. I don’t know.

Are you afraid of anything?

[dothelokimotion]

It does feel that way.

Not so much anymore. All that I feared has already come to pass after all.

[sinistral]

Then why are you afraid of this?

[dothelokimotion]

He is all I have left here. And . . . I don't know what will happen to me if I leave this place.

[sinistral]

Will you not then use the time you have?

[dothelokimotion]

I will. Most certainly.

I suppose I worry.

[sinistral]

Because you can’t see the future. And because you can’t imagine one in which you matter.

Don’t hide from this. Please?