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[dothelokimotion]

I still need to find a way to thank you.

[sinistral]

You being okay really is thanks enough. I don’t say that to be trite, but out of a distrust of what this place can potentially inflict upon us.

[dothelokimotion]

You care that much?

[sinistral]

Does it bother you?

[dothelokimotion]

No. Why would it?

I merely asked because it is . . . rare.

[sinistral]

I don't know, that's why I asked.

Too rare maybe, but not less true for it.

[dothelokimotion]

Then I appreciate it all the more.

I am fine, honest. Annoyed that the world on the surface is blocked for me though.

[sinistral]

I'm glad. Truly.

Hopefully not all of your time was spent in boredom?

[dothelokimotion]

Thankfully the lower half was entertaining. Even if Thor tried to visit every bar in sight.

[sinistral]

So you were on babysitting duty.

[dothelokimotion]

Not so much. Thor could drink a store or two and still survive.

But I am concerned for him. He has . . . not been himself lately.

[sinistral]

Do you think it's something he would talk to you about? Do you WANT him to talk to you about it?

[dothelokimotion]

I have tried. And I will keep trying.

But we've never been very good at it. Neither of us have been comfortable with displays of emotion or dealing with them.

[sinistral]

I wish I could offer any advice but you'd find me poor counsel. I imagine that I deal with them even worse than the two of you. But if you wanted to talk to me, I would try.

[dothelokimotion]

It is enough that you are here. I do not know who else to speak to.

[ lup and taako are good friends, but taako definitely has issues and they're thor's friends too. at least bucky was . . . well, loki's. just loki's. ]

[sinistral]

You have my full attention. For this, or for anything else.

[dothelokimotion]

[ that . . . is so nice. and so unusual. ]

It is strange to be on this side. To fret so. I thought he would be all right, despite my . . . demise.

[sinistral]

[Was unusual. Maybe it doesn’t have to be so strange anymore.]

Is it uncomfortable to think that someone could want you in his life? That he needs you?

[dothelokimotion]

Not uncomfortable. In truth, I think I've always wanted that. Instead of being used, I wanted to be needed.

[ desired. instead of being a stolen relic or the undesirable, to have people notice him and miss the axis on which he spun. loki is dramatic and he enjoys that, but he also had to be, or he would cease to matter. ]

But it is odd. Thor has friends. He could make a life easily without me. He's done it before.

[sinistral]

So why is it different now? What’s changed? Or is he simply done with the pretense that he doesn’t want you around?

[dothelokimotion]

Well, for one, everything we knew and loved is dead. So I understand why it would feel extreme.

[ but it's thor. thor always picked himself up, always managed. ]

[sinistral]

Is it so unusual to think that he’s always needed you, and this has thrown it into sharper relief?

[dothelokimotion]

Yes.

[ 100%. thor has never needed him. it's ludicrous to even consider it. why would thor need him? ]

[sinistral]

And...?

[dothelokimotion]

And what? Thor still has friends in the Fleet. He has friends on that planet he loves so much. He's strong. He has a life.