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[unkindled_madness]

Given how he expressed his care

perhaps that's for the best.

[dothelokimotion]

Perhaps.

But not the easiest thing to reconcile emotionally.

[unkindled_madness]

If he's gone, then what difference does it make?

[dothelokimotion]

Closure always makes a difference.

Surely there are questions within you that you wish to reconcile, regardless of circumstance?

[unkindled_madness]

Yes. I suppose you're right.

[dothelokimotion]

I can live with it. But that doesn't mean at times, I can't wish for more.

[ satisfaction, after all, is not in his nature. ]

[unkindled_madness]

I've never wished for a father.

But I understand wanting more.

[dothelokimotion]

I had two. Neither were particularly good.

[unkindled_madness]

Hence my disinterest.

[Or denial, rather. Because his would undoubtedly be worse.

But that man is no father.]

[dothelokimotion]

[ hmm. ]

And your mother?

[unkindled_madness]

She died when I was born.

[dothelokimotion]

I see.

[ he doesn't say sorry. it's a paltry sentiment. ]

I was fortunate enough to have one. It made a difference.

[unkindled_madness]

What was she like?

[dothelokimotion]

She was exceptional.

She passed on her magic onto me. Believed in me. Even though I wasn't . . . hers, she considered herself no less my mother. And I her son.

[unkindled_madness]

Then it sounds as though you had something worthwhile.

[Of course he's envious but...]

That's good.

[dothelokimotion]

I did.

And thank you.

[unkindled_madness]

[Okay vulnerability sucks bye.]

It's late.

Goodnight.

[dothelokimotion]

Goodnight.