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[compelledtoprotect]

[If he knew Loki could just look in his mind, he might well give permission. It would be a lot faster and easier than saying things aloud, but that was also a coward's way out. If he couldn't even say the words, how was he ever going to start making up for his actions? Or learning better? Or whatever it was he needed to do . . .

Steve shook his head and wouldn't meet Loki's eyes, though he pulled one of the man's hands into both of his. It was comforting to stroke those long fingers and trace random shapes on the back.]


There is no solution Loki. I've hurt people and I can't take it back. I can't make it up. There's no way to apologize. There's just . . . so much regret . . .

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Hurting people is a part of life, Steve. It happens.

[ accountability and all that jazz, though loki couldn't care less. ]

Did you apologize? Make amends?

[compelledtoprotect]

[He spoke to Loki's hand.]


I can't apologize. It goes beyond that. There's no way to fix it Loki. There's nothing I can do to make it better but just . . . just stay away. And try to live with the consequences of my horrific choices. Loki I hurt him. Over and over. I hurt both of them. Why did I do it? Why was I such a monster?